And now we're back down.

My poor dad is back in hospital and this time I'm beyond scared. He was released without much info last Friday and was not doing well at all every since. He finally got an appointment to see the surgeon today and was immediately admitted back to hospital for some tests and it looks like he will need yet another surgery.

It worries me so much that they thought it was a big deal at first, then they thought it was minor, and now it's back to them thinking it could be a major problem requiring major surgery and a long hospital stay. Also, I just don't like the hospital where he is. I mean, there are many things wrong with our health care system, and I have no doubt that other hospitals are equally overcrowded, but this one seriously looks like 1962 and does not inspire confidence. The doctor was recommended by another specialist that is renowned and he seems like he knows what he was doing, but after the way my dad was released after last week's surgery makes me start to wonder about him as well. My mom is trying to get a second opinion but that also is not easy and especially since they seem to think he needs to be opened up again pretty quickly. I'm just praying that he will this time give us a lot more answers about what they are doing.

I know my parents are old, and let's face it, so am I, pushing 40 and all. But I'm so NOT ready for this. The thought of this really being the end of my dad is almost paralyzing to me. Also terrifying is what it would do to my mom. I don't even want to think about it, but hard not to. Also, my dad's spirits are not high at the prospect of facing another grueling recovery and after losing several of his friends to various ailments this past year, he is not much of an optimist that things will go well.

I seriously hope that all this worry is for naught. Also, I feel guilty for previously worrying about whether or not we'll still be able to go to Florida on Dec 29th with the kids as planned. That is so NOT important in the grand scheme of things. I guess they have to learn that family comes first and sometimes plans have to change.