If anyone's reading I'm sure it's getting a little repetitive around here. I'm so tired of it and I'm living it. My poor dad has been in the hospital all week. He was supposed to have surgery yesterday, but for a variety of reasons, none of which make much sense, his surgery never happened, and now will not happen until Tuesday, by which point he will have been in hospital over a week.
He is miserable and cranky as to be expected and won't even look at the hospital food, not that I blame him of course. Which means my poor mom and sometimes others including myself, have to make sure we provide some other food at every mealtime. I don't mind of course because I want to visit anyway as much as I can, but my mom is running ragged and this can't be good for her either. In any case, he was so ready to just get the surgery over with on Friday and was so discouraged, as we all were, when we found out it wasn't going to happen, and worse yet, that he'd now have to wait another three days in hospital before it could be done.
In any case, it is major surgery and we are all very worried and just want the surgery to be done so he can begin recovering. But also, with the surgery being delayed, there is really zero chance of him being home for Christmas. Not that there really was before, but there was a glimmer of hope. Now there isn't. He'll be spending Christmas and then some in the hospital. And to make matters worse, if someone infectious comes in, he may lose the private room that he is currently very lucky to have. Of course we all plan to visit and make the holiday as pleasant as can be in hospital, but it is just sad all around, and Christmas dinner certainly won't be the same without him at the head of the table. But what's important is that his surgery goes well on Tuesday and hopefully soon he will at least be feeling better.
Today we managed to finish up a bit of shopping and other errands, but I have kind of lost my enthusiasm for the holiday with everything that is happening with my dad. I'm going to do my best to put on a brave face and make this holiday special for the kids, in addition to cooking a big turkey dinner, but it's gonna be hard to keep my heart in it. Also, we are supposed to be going to Florida on Dec 29th. It's also hard to think about that with my dad in hospital. Assuming he is okay and stable after the surgery, we may still go, but I hate the thought of going in case anything happens with him. But I also hate the thought of dissapointing my kids who are really looking forward to some sun and fun. But in addition....the thought of spending 6 days in Florida by myself with my kids kind of scares the crap out of me. You see my mom was supposed to come down for the last 6 days after my DH comes back to Toronto for work, but now obviously that isn't happening which of course I understand. However, my kids can be rather difficult and it is pretty stressful to be on my own with them for so long. Again, single parents I salute you because I can't imagine it!
So that's what's up for today...we shall see what this week brings. It still doesn't really feel like this close to Christmas. Maybe it's the weather or the stress or whatever...but I could sure use an extra week or two before this holiday season! Too bad that ain't gonna happen!
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